Not alone

I try to be your friend, I really do. Cause I see how other people perceive you, how they laugh at you and refuse to take you seriously. But I'm different. I say everyone who doesn't like you can shut the hell up and stop licking you.
Cause I've been there where you feel like crap and the most important thing in your life right now is the acceptance of the people around, because now at least they like you. But that's not how life is supposed to be. You're better than that. But for some reason you don't think so. You live your life like your a piece of gum on the floor people scrape their sneakers on. You associate yourself with people who poke fun at your sorrows like it's their favorite game. And that's why I don't get you. You can do so much better. Cause I've seen you. The real you. And the person you're yearning to be is ripping you apart. In the end, it's you who has to be your support system, because I can't make decisions for you. I can't take the razor out of your hand, no matter how hard I want to. And it kills me to see them, the scars you try to hide, cause I can't do anything about it. I know it's not my job, but it makes me sick how people ignore you and make you ignore yourself, how people take advantage of your pain.
And even though I don't understand you, I'm gonna keep on trying to. Because being misunderstood makes you feel like your in a void of loneliness that's incurable and sometimes it feels like your stuck with no one but yourself, and the hate you harbor. The hole inside you gets bigger till you're enveloped in your own rage and insecurity. Suddenly, it's as if there's no turning back, and you're so deep in the emotions you tried so hard to escape you can't seem to get out.
I get it.And you need to know that you're not alone. I understand more than you give me credit. Just because I don't show it, doesn't mean I don't have so much emotions it hurts. Doesn't mean I don't hide behind my smile for convenience. Or that I don't know what it feels like to have almost everyone you know shove you into a box you don't fit into.