My confession

Can't regret my decisions
not surprised I didn't listen
to my mind from the beginning
told me I wouldn't be winning
but I did it anyway
sad to say
my instincts were right got played
feelings of rejection and depressing just won't go away
and I pray
from the ground to the sky
but here they stay
never in my life would I imagine going through such pain
where my heart is broken
and I'm choking
on emotions
in my throat it's
killing me to be around him
all is lost i haven't found it
motivation to be better keep going to forget him
know its best if I don't let it get to me
just breathe

But it ain't workin'
I'm still hurtin'
in my soul there's hope still lurking
goes to show that I'm not perfect
getting hurt was never worth it
didn't learn my lesson
guessing
that I'm still obsessing
stressing
this is my confession
listen
to the words that i am spilling
can't deny what I am feeling
cause I tried to be it
tried to be this
person everyone expected
one that never gets affected
by the people who reject them
now I'm done
the show has ended
it was fun that's my confession.